sorry for not putting up th links yet .
I think i'll do it after MYE .
MYE is totally freaking me out .
And i'm sure to fail ALOT of subjects for sure ,
let's take chinese , art , d&t for example
and surely i will fail my other subjects too DDD:
i cnt believe i've made myself sooo .. irresponsible and ignorant
tht i cnt even do all my homework .
and i cnt be bothered to study seriously for my exams .

AM I REALLY THT STUPID ?
IF THS IS PUNISHMENT FOR BEING A BAD GIRL ,
THN IM SOO SORRY !

lols . wht am i saying ? hahhs .
nehminds .

I finally found time to post at th nsera blog :D
yaaaaay me !

I officially cnt take it anymore .
it's either _________ or _________
and i cnt wait to talk to ms tan abt seating arrangements .
sitting near peixiang or richard is making me SICK .


and i cnt take th fact tht it's ALL gone .
well maybe not exactly ALL gone ,
but MOST gone ?
whtever .
should i really do it ?
oh whtever . i don't care DDDD;
well , i do care but wht am i supposed to do abt it ?
nothing , absolutely nothing .

thx for asking me a question just to nag at me .
like , tht's all you ever do .
whtever

lols , and idk why i cnt stand my sch uniform any longer ?
i'd rather wear PE or th orientation tee or th choir uni .
as in , whn will th choir uni come ?
i just feel like my uniform is , well ..
too green
mint green is nice , but too much of it ?
makes me puke .
not tht i've puked or anything . i just hate it , okay ?

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i am totally going to kill myself .
i cnt believe i started on a task but dint finish it .
i feel so irritated .
i feel so alone .
why is this happening ?

honestly i think i hate myself .
i honestly think tht i oughta hate myself .
i cnt believe im so clumsy .
i cnt believe i dint save myself frm all this misery
why is it this way ?
why ? why ? why ?
i cnt believe i deleted it !
i cnt believe i dint save it .
it oughta be part of my memory .
but now it's just ... nothing but dunno wht .

I mean , i really hate myself .
I should've just saved myself from all this regret .
I wanted it SO BADLY .
but I dint treasure it tht good .
i knw i oughta kill myself .
but they won't let me .
I cnt bring myself to th desicion .
it's all i wanted .
it's all i want .
and it's all i will ever want .

pls save me .
i swear i'll need you .
forever

i don't believe tht bullying a guy is so easy .
daddy is easy to bully , for example .
he is easy to bully too .

thr was this guy .
he kinda stood infront of me just now .
and i swear he cut hair .
and OMG .
amazingly , he did !
he just told me .
he was like , how to say ??
his voodoo doll .
okok .
you cnt blame me .
they have resemblances !
fine . you dunno wht im toking abt .
=.= i was toking to myself again .

don't ask who's th 2 he's
bcuz idk th name of th other one . =.=
lols .

went to eat with rachel and christabelle today .
thn went we wanna eat finish ,
atiqah called to say tht our I & E workshop teacher come alr .
and we were like , O.o .
cuz ms tan say no I & E .
thn we ruching back to class ,
whn she called and say dun have . =.=
thn we like wok here wok thr .
dunno whr to go .
and whn me and christabelle wok back ,
i saw shirley okay !
misssssed her like , soooooo much !
well , i miss th nsera oso :D
thn finally went home to on comp :D
long time no use comp alr .
so i decided to spend quality time with th laptop .
i knw .
and amazingly , he was online .
toked for quite awhile alr .
today it was unusual okay !
dunno . bcuz too many things happened in a short time span .
AM I SO LUCKY ?
until th stupid laptop went lagging .
and everything was GONE ?!?!
yeahs , my totto-chan project ,
my book report ?
my news report and everything else just as important .
i hate it okay !

i've been reading sad stories on youtube .
really sad okay .
but i havent found a story tht i actually cried
=.=
just have to keep looking O.o

okok , brb .
im waiting for somebody to spam th taggie :D

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today saw 3 rainbows sia!
nice nice :D

frm th pics only can see two. =.=
cuz th other one in sch,
and thn i nvr bring my fone, lol
so sian lehh,
got alot of free periods in class.

u knw horh,
today recess whn stayed in class
to help atiqah and co.
thn we nida move atiqah to comp lab 1
thn we bring her thr,
and thn come back.
thn come back, recess over alr!
thn our classmates all siam alr =.=
including desmond, so th class is locked!
OMIGAWD,
our things r all still inside.
which is me, youxia, rachel, christabelle and putri
thn today had chinese test,
but i left all my things in class!
siao luh!
thn we only got 1 permission pass,
if we get caught by any teacher, detention liaos!!!
we died , u knw
thn we hide while putri go take th permission pass
to call desmond give us th key,
thn she say our chi test starting alr!
walao lorh.
thn open th door still nida pack bag.
haiz, thn run up
Luckily my compo do finish in time, or else die liaos
but i still think i failed =.=
i knw i did badly!!

die lerhs!
i knw i die lerhs
i ask youxia ask akif if he got sign th consent form for vch
thn she nvr hear properly,
thn go ask him if he angry bcuz i like him
stupid right!?!
I dun even like him!
AS IF LORH!
IM NOT TAT KIND OF GURL OKAY!

hw many times must i say we're just friends?!
Im mentally retarded llama and he's handsome llama! =.=
stupid, right!??!
tat's waat friends are for,
pei-ing u to be stupid.

lawls!
Still, he kips pestering me =.=

alot of sec-2's absent frm choir
cuz they have common test.
we sec 1,3,4 all perfect th shin ji lu alr!

i memorize alr lehhs!
clever right?
i knw luhh, dun nida tell me.

wa-ta-shi-wa, jasmine sad!
lawls
i today got sumting wrong with me
i cnt walk straight, u knw?!
i kip falling down, bmping into things
i buying drinks frm vending machine
thn, i omost fall backwards,
but youxia behind,
thn she used her knee push me forwards,
thn i bang into the vending machine!

stupid right.
i cnt even do monkey bar, seriously!
i oso cnt do th lip vibrating thing
i knw right!
stupid sia.
dunno wat to tok abt.
tmr wanna walk around th whole sch again!
and walk thru th holes! yeahs
did tat with cheryl and ahmad today!
:D
fun fun,

gtg.

xoxo,
Nicoleee

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